August Alsina stopped by The Breakfast Club this morning and things got real emotional, real fast.
During their chat, August talked about not having family, battling with depression and suicidal thoughts, refusing therapy and more.
Check out a few excerpts:
On not having real family:
“To be honest, I don’t have no family. I’m my family. It’s just me. I have my brother, but he figuring his life out. I got my nieces, that’s my family.”
On his relationship with his mother:
“My mom is a queen for one reason, she gave me life and she raised me. I can never take that away from my mom. We all have issues.”
“My mom is my mom. I don’t expect people to really understand the situation with my mom and her kids. Sometimes we go years, months without talking to her. I applaud my mom for doing all that she has done for us as a parent, but I think that sometimes the mother side gets pushed to the side. I just imagine me having a kid and my kid being an artist and in a song my child sings ‘I try to buy my mama love she don’t appreciate me.’ My reaction isn’t to go online to explain myself to the world. My reaction is…let me see what’s wrong with my child because I’m the parent and you’re the child. I feel like a regular person to my mom, not her son.”
On having suicidal thoughts:
“I have thoughts about that sh*t. I just remember being super, overly depressed. Not knowing how to deal with the sh*t. Not having a mother to talk to, my father is dead. I don’t have anyone out here to teach me sh*t. I’m doing all this on my own. I went through so many surgeries, my mama didn’t even check on a n*gga. I’m damn near dead and losing my vision and you don’t check on your kid? It teached me when I have a child is when I’ll have a family. That’s why I put “Song Cry” out. This is my truth. People can take that as depressing or looking for attention, but I’m just giving you my reality. Everybody else is out here living this fantasy world.”
On if he still has suicidal thoughts:
“[Pause] Hmm..I don’t know man. I’m just kind of all over the place. I’m not just out here moping and depressed. We alive. We breathing.”
On why he refused Chris Brown’s suggestion of getting therapy:
“I was talking to Chris about it one time. I sat down and did that [therapy] before, it’s just not my thing. I’m not into it. I help myself over time. It just take me a longer time to go through it and figure it out.”
On that video where he groped a fan’s breast on stage:
“It was the part where I call a lady on stage. To be honest, when I saw the video I didn’t even know, I had no idea that was even happening. I grabbed her titty. She had this sequin dress on and I couldn’t even feel. I talked to her because that’s what media do…make you out to be a monster. She was actually more upset for me because she was a real fan. Don’t try to corrupt my fans. Do I look like a n*gga who pressed to grab a titty? That moment was very innocent.”
On why he’s always getting sick:
“I’m just a sickly man and I just have to accept that sh*t. I’m good. I been taking care of myself better than before. Not only that, I’m in a better place spiritually and mentally. The last surgery I had was on my sinuses. I basically couldn’t breathe out one side of my nose, so they had to break it.”
“I feel nothing. I don’t feel anything. It’s just whatever with me at this point. I done been through so much sh*t I just have to play the cards how they come.”
On doing drugs:
“Let me be clear, I don’t do coke. I don’t snort cocaine.”
It was a really honest and heavy interview. You can watch it in full below.