Caitlyn Jenner accepted the Transgender Champion award at Glamour’s Women of the Year Awards ceremony.
She accepted her award in a custom Moschino gown.
Recalling her long transition, Jenner explained that she spent many nights wondering what she should do about her life, and confessing that she spent a lot of time isolating herself and lying to the world. But finally, a time came when she had to open up to those who mean the most—her kids.
“So I sat down with each one of my ten children and it was the big secret in the family that no one could talk about because I was getting destroyed in the tabloids every week, walking through the grocery line looking at the headlines and so were my children and it was hurtful. So I sat each of them down and said, this is my story. This is who I am.”
Caitlyn added that she also had conversations with God, and ultimately came to the conclusion that maybe being her authentic life is her purpose on this Earth, so she could make a difference in the world. “What a great opportunity in life to have, so few of us ever get the opportunity,” she said.
And then, the 66-year-old revealed one of the biggest personal milestones she recently achieved.
“Over the last six months, it has been the most eye-opening experience of my life. For years and years, I never felt like I fit in anywhere. I always felt as an outsider. I never felt good on the male side and I wasn’t obviously on the female side. I was kind of stuck in the middle, but all of a sudden, after making this decision and coming out, it was by far the best thing I ever did, because for so many years, I lost my enthusiasm for life. I literally would be standing in my house for almost six years because I never wanted to come out, just to go to work, that’s about it. Now, actually, I like going out and I like being myself.
“To Glamour magazine, I got to tell you a story quickly. I haven’t been on the airlines for over a year. Why? Because I haven’t had an authentic ID. Finally, last week I got my driver’s license and gender marker F. It’s always the little things in life. I am sitting on the plane for the first time reading Glamour magazine and not having to fold over the cover so no one can see what I was actually reading, and I had it opened up beautifully and just reading through Glamour magazine was absolutely great. So thank you, Glamour magazine for honoring me tonight. I never in a million years thought I’d be here and I am sure you didn’t either.”
— Glamour (@glamourmag) November 10, 2015